I went on my retreat this weekend. I usually go every April and October, but I missed this most recent April because I'd just started my new job. So it had been a year.
A year is, apparently, too long for me.
I haven't needed a retreat so badly in many years, and I've been going regularly for eleven.
I will not share specifics of this weekend away. As with every precious and special thing in the world the details are for the attendees. I will share, however, the theme: Self acceptance.
What if I accepted myself, totally and completely?
How would I be different in my life? How would my relationships change? How would I face life's challenges? How would I face successes?
So, I am sitting with all of these questions. I am considering myself in a way I have not previously.
And I have quit smoking.
Because no matter what, I cannot reconcile the future I hand myself by continuing to indulge in that behavior. Plus I fucking stink.
Pray for me.
10/22/2008
A GOOD HARD LOOK
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5 comments:
i quit. again. just over a week ago. i got a chest cold that felt so bad there were moments where i felt i was drowning. i want one really badly right now.
Way to go. Good luck!
You'll get through it. Way to go!
I quit years ago and it still sucks. But I smell good or better. ;-)
You go girl!! Enjoy all the new tastes and smells!
That's awesome.
I changed a lot of my behavior patterns because I wanted to honor the life of the lady I have yet to meet.
Plus, my husband kept throwing away my smokes and I was using up all my shoe money...
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