Here is Crummy Cupcake on Wordle:
I went on my retreat this weekend. I usually go every April and October, but I missed this most recent April because I'd just started my new job. So it had been a year.
A year is, apparently, too long for me.
I haven't needed a retreat so badly in many years, and I've been going regularly for eleven.
I will not share specifics of this weekend away. As with every precious and special thing in the world the details are for the attendees. I will share, however, the theme: Self acceptance.
What if I accepted myself, totally and completely?
How would I be different in my life? How would my relationships change? How would I face life's challenges? How would I face successes?
So, I am sitting with all of these questions. I am considering myself in a way I have not previously.
And I have quit smoking.
Because no matter what, I cannot reconcile the future I hand myself by continuing to indulge in that behavior. Plus I fucking stink.
Pray for me.
Me, peeling an orange over the kitchen sink this morning. Levi, watching me.
Levi: Watch out, Mom! You're gonna get that orange dust all over you!
Me: Oh, it's not dust, hon. It's the oils from the orange peel. You could call it "zest."
Levi: Well, be careful or you're gonna be zesty!
I had some dental work this week. Not my favorite thing.
My face is swollen to twice its usual size, but only on one side. So that's nice.
Eating yogurt and pudding and mashed potatoes.
And then my hubs brought home these:
Totally not what I should be eating but they are so damn good, they are the only things I want to eat. Spicy but not hot, so flavor-full and delicious. (When I see the list of things I have been eating it makes a little more sense that I have been devouring them, but honest to god - these things are snack-tastic. No joke.)
You should probably head out now and get yourself some. I'll be sitting here on my ass. When you get back and have shoved the entire box into your face, feel free to ping me about it.